Updated: Oct 29, 2019
On Friday, Cassie - who we must remind ourselves is an actress and singer - posted an old picture of herself staring out of a window. In her caption, she discussed the person she was in 2017 versus who she is now. She talked about her growth and personal journey and hoped to inspire others to recognize growth in themselves as well.
It's unfortunate that the media and public does not recognize many women in the industry based on their own
. In the previous paragraph, I mentioned reminding ourselves of Cassie's career because she is more famous for a romantic interest of Diddy for many years. Many blogs have mentioned her post and caption claiming it was actually a dig at Diddy. When I googled "Cassie talks about happiness" quite a few popped with headlines such as "Cassie Admits She Faked Happiness with Diddy." If you go to actually read her
, she never speak of Diddy, She doesn't talk about a bad relationship. She talked about a girl who battled personal demons and how far she has come. Reading Cassie's caption made me look at myself and the journey towards personal growth that I have been on for the past few years. Like a roller coaster, it has had many up and downs.
This picture was taken in October of 2015. I was at the beginning of a down. From the outside looking in everything was good. No one knew of the personal demons I was battling and some admired the way, I did not let life affect me. In truth, I was very much effected by life. I tried to mask my pain by traveling and partying and anything else not to be alone with my thoughts. Within a year of taking this picture, I gained 25+ pounds. What many people thought was happy weight, was actually a physical representation of stress, (I'm one of those people who eats her feelings.)
My personal demons are just that personal. Yes their are sometime outside circumstances that may make life a little more difficult. But they way we handle difficult situations is a reflection of our inner self.
Would I love to be this size again? Absolutely but that would require exercise and I have an allergy to that lol. The important thing this is that I have not continued to gain stress weight. Not because everything in my life has been peachy keen but because of growth.
Taking a month to step away from distraction is a part of my process. I still have the horrible habit of burying my problems deep inside but once a year I force myself to face them. Taking a step away from those things that I deem as distractions and sitting face to face with myself has been healthy and revealing for me.
Mahatma Gandhi said that “Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” It is out personal responsibility to get these things in order. Thank you Cassie for sharing your testimony.